Paranoid

Shit been getting difficult my life is at a stand and still I lost freinds and soo much time that i wish i had still I cant numb the pain but maybe crazy loads of cash i will I cant numb the pain but maybe money clothes and cash will Listen i aint tripping listen im exactly where im supposed to be Working writing verses is what really means the most to me Im a sad boy i dont let nobody close to me Cause first its all love then eventually there over me Baby take the pain away i just take it day to day Rapping till i fade away i dont roll no paper chase Im trapped inside my brain i hate this damn curropted database Man theres something wrong with me is throwing off my beta waves Illest with the flows will i make it i dont know But ima give it all i got this is what i chose And lately i been feeling all time low All these people know my number but dont call my phone F*ck em all fake snakes i dont f*ck with that Mama told me from the jump never trust a rat Live alone die alone yeah its just a fact I tried hiding my emotions but i suck at that This is it no more tripping i had too much second chances I feel pressure i fell pressed with every second that passes And how i ended up here this shit is beyond me Gotta live with my decisons you fell it its on me I been smoking every night i got this money on my mind Bitch i couldve sign already but i didn't i declined I aint selling all my soul i know that im one of a kind And i know these things are crazy that some shit i cant describe I said f*ck it lets just run it lets leave everything behind And i got no time for no bitch i got no time to socailize I got this tunnel vision listen all i see is dollar signs I aint switching over nothing know that thats a bottom line Live alone die alone grinding till my mind is blown War ready soilder i aint scared let the night explode I already told you ima go and get it on my own Nobody can stop me just watch me im reaching milestone Its for all the times where people told me just to quit This for all the fcuking nights when my mind was loosing grip This for everyome that switched when i was down and jumped shit Dont come running back asking for nothing when im dumb rich I have been thorough soo much bullshit that you cannot comprehend Anybody you see with me thats my family not my freinds Ima get the last laugh bitch im driven by revenge Ive been having flashbacks of some traggic events F*ck em all fake snakes i dont f*ck with that Mama told me from the jump never trust a rat Live alone die alone yeah its just a fact I tried hiding my emotions but i suck at that This is it no more tripping i had too much second chances I feel pressure i fell pressed with every second that passes And how i ended up here this shit is beyond me Gotta live with my decisons you fell it its on me