Loved & Lost

Thinking of these memories That I'm keeping to myself Hope nobody's judging Or knows my struggle well Can't excuse my cringe Cause I didn't know how to live I swear the past catches up For these fucks I used to give For all the wrong reasons In so many seasons I knew I did some wrong back here Cause I said things out of place Threw some shade, spoke Some hate back in my day But I paid, through the days So I had to change my ways Out of space, its a race Broke myself to take away All the pain, what I made I could never gain In what I've loved And what I've lost With what I know I know the cost Yea life goes on But I'm not afraid To go Yea I fight so hard To save it on the low With what I've loved And what I've lost Got so much I repressed That could leave me depressed But I don't let that get to me I have little shame except from Where I went and I wish I was Somewhere else Cause I hate who I used to be And I like who I look and see inside Who I am is my identity You'll never take whatever's Left of me Cause I said things out of place Threw some shade, spoke Some hate back in my day But I paid, through the days So I had to change my ways Out of space, its a race Broke myself to take away All the pain, what I made I could never gain In what I've loved And what I've lost With what I know I know the cost Yea life goes on But I'm not afraid To go Yea I fight so hard To save it on the low With what I've loved And what I've lost