IF ONLY

Never was the hardest in the room But the energy I harvest is respected I can prove That I rarely was rejected, just the friendliest of dudes When I suffered from depression, I was shelled in my cocoon I was Never the same Outta my mind Rather deranged I had to find Me in that place Negative thoughts All in my brain I Had to find myself In the midst of stress Took some time to deal with grief I had to free myself I C E had then gave me a Red Bandana Told me it was loyalty for all the times that I had helped him We were going through rough patches Our relationship was shaky Made decisions that were selfish I chose me, I couldn't help it If only I knew That was the last time That I'd see my homie come through Guilt-stricken I couldn't believe I didn't make truce Now that you gone I'm praying to God like put homie through And mama too If only there's a number I could call Out in heaven I would do it, just so I could hear your voice And tell you that I love you with your flaws I would rather me than you If only there was such a choice If only there's a number I could call Out in heaven I would do it, just so I could hear your voice And tell you that I love you with your flaws I would rather me than you If only there was such a choice