fly off the handle

Spent ten years hoping my luck change Brave face to the word, I'm screaming f*ck pain My hope laced with my fears, I had to duck shame My fears laced with my anger, I had to take blame I been begging for peace, begging for freedom from my Inner demons I needed someone to feed em, now I See my evils I'm trying so hard to leave em behind Meditate on my hatred I feel it creep in my mind Your love is holding my peace hostage I don't need you no more, I feel exhausted The accusations, you tell me that I'm too caustic I feel amazing, but I know what it costed I see your anger, and I know you exhausted Wishing that I wasn't a stranger You think you lost it Wonder what you did When I know you can't solve it I was just a kid, when they got me involved I'll admit I fly off the handle just a little bit Pressures sneaking up on me I pray my mind won't ever split Full of doubts, went a different route I became devout Gassing up myself because it drowns the other voices out Pray to God Praying for patience to pay my parents back I know that they gave it up so I would always be on track Ain't enough, I do what I want, I said f*ck the rush Everyone I know gave up their dreams, I do it for us