Kerosene Rain

I'm dancing in kerosene rain I'm hiding the sparks in my veins And is the skin tough enough To keep me from lighting aflame? Is this all that I have? The little things? I'm finding my comfort in my fears I'm swimming in frozen waves I'm fighting the ice in my way And will the water fill my bones And keep me from staying afloat? Is this all that I have? The temporary things? I'm finding my comfort in my fear Of being erased And all that I've become The harvest and the hunt My pieces coming undone I'm hiding in ocean caves Breathing the salt the air brings But is the world big enough For everything I feel? Is this all that I have? The fleeting moments? I'm holding on with all my heart Or whatever's left of it Someday I knew I'd fall apart I'm scared of the monsters, not the dark Of pulling my own pieces apart Is this all that I can take? These horrors in my brain? I'm finding it hard to stay awake I stay home and medicate The violence in my DNA I self destruct to stay the same I'm throwing my pieces away I'm dancing in kerosene rain I'm lighting the sparks in my veins