i can explain

This is about me This is about you This is about me and you This about it Whatever it was or could've been This is about why it never seemed to work out This is about why I couldn't give myself to you To what I wanted for myself There are a million reasons why I could go on forever But here's 5 I can explain 1 I am impatient I want it all and I want it now Or I don't want it at all I'm picking you up Why weren't you outside already? I want us to be better Why haven't you changed yet? I want to be successful Why am I not there yet? I always want things to be perfect before I even start them Then I never start them I think I know what I want Then switch up when I have to work harder Realizing it's not really what I love What do I love? 2 I don't know who I am I'm still trying to figure that out 3 I don't love myself I realized I don't give a f*ck about myself I chose everything over myself I gave all my love to people who wouldn't reciprocate To things that had no purpose I got caught in a constant cycle of overworking myself Nothing Was for me And only for me My love My time My energy How can I possibly love you if I don't love myself? How can I give myself to you when I have nothing left to give? 4 I lost my faith I stopped going to church I was aware of my faults but never brought them to Him I sat in my sin I couldn't truly love because I didn't know real love that's only provided by Him I thought I could do everything on my own That I had to fix things before committing to Him I forgot that He fixes broken things 5 I am used to things not working out I am used to being hurt I am used to sadness I'm used to being let down I'm used to not being enough I'm used to love not existing So I sit in it And now I'm stuck But I am no longer that I am learning to be patient I am figuring out who I am I am learning to love myself I am learning to live in my faith I'm going to make it work out So I don't have to explain anymore