21. (ecclesiastes)

21 years on this earth And i wanna kill myself Everyday been praying Since i was Seven And i want no help Fucked up in my head I'm hanging on by a thread Know that these demons want me dead They didn't think i'd get ahead I wonder if this life is fake I wonder what'd it take to hate Pills fucked up my invertebrate I'm moving in, i can't shake Fighting mental everyday Feel like im suffering with pain Wish you could take it all away But now you're gone, my world is turning grey Now it's f*ck this F*ck that Insecure the levels How you run back? What's that? Don't go and turn into the motherfuckers that you hate I know you praying everyday You tryna find a better way Know you hate me, it's okay It's a front Give it up Don't be doing f*ck shit in disguise I can see thru yo eyes Had them demons paralyzed Take a step in my mind I ain't ever tell no lie Give my soul to you, i Gave my soul all to you Never been ran thru Stop acting like that's brand new I'm telling you the damn truth Tie my neck up with a noose 21 to life, ain't new Wish i was spending time with you Spend this day all in vein Put this bullet to my brain