Deperson

Everything has felt hollow Since you were taken away It's getting harder to swallow It seems my grief has been delayed But now I feel upended Easily offended I let every little sentence hurt Captivated by the grapevine Assimilated by the hive mind Gonna smoke myself into a hearse Deperson It is how it seems I'm running low on dreams I never thought I'd be in this situation I've been unabashedly idealist all my life Every action rehearsed Every impulse is cursed Ill-fated fossil fuels of my imagination This helplessness is learned And I'm trying to forget but Sometimes you just gotta take the L There's no getting round this inevitable hell so I'm gonna own my grief and feel Before I lose any more of my self The path to meaning misled me So I turned the opposite way Tell me; what good has come of my virtues? I versed myself in vices instead Now I am liked and enabled by my associations Who needs a deeper empathy? I embraced the absurd but its indifference remains towards me I embraced the absurd but its indifference remains towards me Deperson Sometimes you just gotta take the L There's no getting round this inevitable hell so I'm gonna own my grief and feel Before I lose any more of my self And I don't want to forget But it's too much to retain I must accept myself for what I am (Recycle yourself) I must accept myself for what I am I am trash just like everybody else Sometimes you just gotta take the L There's no getting round this inevitable hell so I'm gonna own my grief and feel Before I lose any more of my self Deperson And I don't want to forget