Lessons & Lectures

Look, I tried playing with fire and I got burned I know it's cliché but I guess, lesson learned Lessons and lectures, yeah I been through em all But each time it seems fine then another comes along I hope I don't get embarrassed when I tell this I dealt with depression as a Christian my mind melted I thought I was immune but I'll tell you right now It had a hold on my soul and I felt helpless April had me feeling alone, my dark ages I was down for the count, I guess Satan had made arrangements I went on with life and kept it moving but then May came And everything I thought was stable wasn't truly And there I was in my room, tired of losing I never thought that life itself was so abusive My energy depleted, contacts deleted Reconfiguring my systems like a technological genius Then there was jolly old June, just a couple more days And then I'd be seventeen soon I had friends hitting me up like, man what's the moves But my social battery hadn't yet charged to full Not even a half, more like a twenty-two Just a week into summer and I'm already in the mood Like dang, haha Man, all these emotions really got me confused I tried playing with fire and I got burned I know it's cliché, but I guess, lesson learned Lessons and lectures, yeah I been through em all But each time it seems fine and another comes along I hope I don't get embarrassed when I tell this I dealt with depression as a Christian, my mind melted I thought I was immune, but I tell you right now It had a hold on my soul and I felt helpless Okay, I was broke out my mind Two daughters, I was mad at God, didn't give him no time Hoop and hollering, I stayed focused and I kept on my grind Was too tired, then I peeped that I was all out of line Like school phonicsly, I'm more eager Need help from my Jesus, I'm over-completed I'm folding them demons, not restored, I'm depleted I'm more than I'm seeing depression Kicking tail, and taking names, I'm Simon Peter Ain't no lecture can save me, my brain be trying to weaken Needed me a healer, all the saints, we steady teaching Practice what you preach, say something but don't mean it Lord, make my path straight, I'm walking like Drunken Beaver I feel so holy, say, feeling like Justin Bieber They can't take my mind, depression, losing Beating every demon every time, it's kinda confusing Lord, I need you right in my life, I'm done abusing I'm walking with you right by my side, I'm done with losing Back on buisness, I'll be back on mission Back ain't never get me happy, wishing I was never stuck My story never finish, back replenish Homie, gotta feel me, you can tell the difference Hey, hey, and you can tell the difference I tried playing with fire and I got burned I know it's cliche, but I guess, lesson learned Lessons and lectures, yeah, I've been through them all But each time it seems fine, then another comes along I hope I don't get embarrassed when I tell this I dealt with depression as a Christian, my mind melted I thought I was immune, but I tell you right now It had a hole in my soul and I felt Mmm, and I felt helpless