Do I Look Happy?

IshKode what the f*ck is wrong? Is you happy or what? Feeling stressed Slipped down some steps I'm friends again with this girl called death Losing my breath Trying explain my pain I'm catching a debt Stitches all up in my face I'm losing my money I'm stuck in this place Big ass house but I'm alone And my girl got me blocked on all my phones Whoa I'll think she be back But I don't even know So I'll just rap Through this cold Say I'm fine but it's cap Soul Feeling empty because I lack Gold Hearts now because it's broken Harsh words getting spoken F*ck this world be the slogan Trying to heal, my wounds open IshKode I just be be losing this life I just be losing a wife My back is just made for these knives And God knows that I try Old thoughts make me cry Oh my she was fine We need space and some time I put this pain in this rhyme I burn this sage with the fire This that year of the tiger My threshold reaching higher My stories looking like a flyer Attitude be the fighter Dark days getting brighter This death rope is getting tighter All this weed needs lighter Why ain't you happy You over there sad for no reason like you ain't the fucking man You still tripping over losing your girl You know she coming back They trying to shut you out the rap game huh F*ck them fake ass copy cats You the original to do it in and out the hood You a fucking international musician Get it together boy We ain't trying to be toxic I'm the star of this comic Super hero turned villain Trapped my mind with these feelings Over, over and get over me Eating these mushrooms and smoking trees Picked a new habit and hitting the breeze Flipping the sadness to build up the cheese I'm just fronting Baby girl pushing my buttons Stay out the way I ain't hitting the function Stuck in my head from concussions Battling all my assumptions What the f*ck am I doing? Time to go back, I'm returning to student F*ck that we building the movement Twisted raps I'm spitting that mutant I ain't happy Cuz love is blind Life attacked me Took what's mine These new babes tell me take my time It's too late got to pay that fine Only the family These oppies can't stand wit me I'm kicking insanity I'm punching me back in my dreams Stay humble you always been down before gravity New thoughts keep me thinking New thots winking at me Got to stay focused im running a track meet No running the streets I should slow down No rocking these beats in your home town Chakra crown Turn my funk to a Chaka Kahn Look at me nah I learned to swim I can't drown out IshKode