How are you feeling ?

I explain I'm not in my head In the chair I'm nodding off again All I ever wanted was just a friend Now all I think about is when it's gon end As a man how do I say I'm depressed ? Anxiety, I'm holding my damn chest Hyperventilating tryna catch my breath I'm gonna make it , let family get some rest I can't stop till I'm counting my damn bread I love God, but he putting me to the test Dear satan you're really doing your best You can't last in my head , it's really a mess I breakdown I cannot deal with the stress Sometimes I think it'll be better if I am dead How are you feeling ? How are you feeling truly ? Like , like how are you feeling ? I think I need some prescriptions I'm on the stage and I'm clearly addicted If I end it , I'll do it where there's no witness Dear music I think I am too far in it To the ones I love I'm sorry I've been distant Maybe I belong in a whole different dimension Oh , I'm sorry , that's something I didn't mention And I'm tired of fake happiness , pretending I think it's time I tell you how I am feeling Misunderstood , I'm always the damn villain How are you feeling tho ? Yeah, you How are you feeling bro ? I care abt you , in case somebody hasn't told you Taking over but I'm still not happy I know yall like it better when I am rapping But some things, they just gotta be done One shot I take one shot And then it's two shot And now I forgot Will the substance really help me? Keep it real, my mental health is not healthy I probably will not be happy when I'm wealthy But I'll still do it for the family Imma retire them and then I may js leave Cuts on my skin and I cover it with a sleeve Hoping one day that I can just sit and breathe Hope one day that I'll be living in peace And maybe one day I won't overthink Nah