nature

f*ck me I'm a tidal wave bout to make the city fall down i'm clean til i'm pretty wasted cause youre getting wasted cause youre like that now im not sure anymore if i could make you turn around, open doors cause i don't like me when i'm acting out living like a civil war but i want what i can't i can't help myself i'm selfish in love i love you too much i'm fucking this up but i can't hold it in so i say it out loud it's loud in my head my head's ringing out i wanna be dead but i cant do it no i can't change a thing it's just my nature i guess like i wanna make sure you hate me again and i'm not gonna fix it or pretend when it's just my nature sideways like a sheet of rain maybe i should straighten my mind do things for the thrill of it take a pill of it just to see if it works this time i'm not sure anymore if i can keep holding up what i forged up about me trainwreck that still got it bad, hate it that you made me like that but i want what i can't i can't help myself i'm selfish in love i love you too much i'm fucking this up but i can't hold it in and it's loud in my head i say it out loud it's all ringing out i wanna be proud but i can't do it no i can't change a thing it's just my nature again like i wanna make sure you hate me i guess and i'm not gonna fix it or pretend when it's just my nature so i do it again, i'm playing it up then hating myself for letting me down how am i weaker than everyone else telling me whats really in love cause youre fucking not and i can't get over it taking the hit, i'm losing myself but still holding on cause funny enough youre all that i know that i want it's all that i know it's just my nature like i wanna make sure you hate me again and i'm not gonna fix it or pretend