I'm Fine

(SadBoiDilly) So, I feel like I don’t deserve this pain I’m writing this sitting in the rain, yah I’ve been so depressed I’m just so upset Don’t want to be here, I just want to rest Just to stop breathing, to stop bleeding to stop feeling this way I swear to god I’ll run AWAY!! I look up at the stars wondering if anyone even cares, livin my life just doesn’t even feel fair, I feel like I need to cut deep, feel like I just want to sleep, I don’t know how I’m gonna survive I just want to be floating in the sky, doesn’t matter dead or alive. Yeah been getting bullied in school, everyone just don’t think I’m cool I’m starting to think that I’m just a little ol fool See when I’m happy I wish for moments to last forever but is seems like they never whatsoever I’ve been doing some drugs to get away from the struggles, get away from the pain, but I think it’s gonna be worse when they goin up in my veins Yah it’s ironic that a side affect of my pills is depression, see I got it cause I ain’t restin, I’m always stressin, yeah these demons be possessin, call it obsession, nowadays I got so much aggression, yeah livin now isn’t even a blessin See, It scares me sometimes, all my emptiness I have up inside, it all just gives me thoughts of suicide, thoughts of not being alive, why should I even try if I can’t even fly Yeah I don’t know how to talk to people so I wrote this song yeah I always feel like I’m in the wrong they won’t even care when I’m gone (Sad Boi Dilly) I’ve been telling myself I’m fine, (I’m fine) that It’ll get better over time. I’ll just live my life like the rest, I can just only hope for the best, gotta stay alive I can’t take bet with my demons. Yeah I just always lie and tell everyone that I’m fine.... ($ister$adian) Driving in the rain I can not complain Do it everyday Smoke away the pain Trying every way Should I even stay Not about this way Not about this life Why I even try I ain't tryna lie Had to hide my knife I wanna fucking die Slit my wrists and end tonight But you care about my life Do you care about yours Baby, what you waiting for, no "Do you love me?" Yes of course This shit's a fucking chore Mabye I do not adore this fight Because the key outta this life Isn't a key, it's a bullet I'm thinking too much I just need to cool it Or maybe just write my will and take some pills Like what's the big deal I just really wanna feel Murder in my eyes I will not comply To my demons lurking in my mind I try to take my time To write these lines Not tryna make them rhyme 'Cuz that shit's a crime A crime against myself Forcing me to will this out I'm not allowed to take a different route I gotta keep slaving to these words Not to get this clout But to calm these demons Man, they travel in herds Corrupting my mind, steady scheming You need to start leaving me alone Passing through my head, by my lone I've been coming to conclusions Do I belong here, all these illusions Keep on coming, never stop abusin I feel like I'm on low battery I can't wait to die, literally Tell me why I can't stop crying My eyes hurt too much from wiping My tears away, should I even stay Baby give me a reason 'Cuz I'm fading away... (Sad Boi Dilly) I’ve been telling myself I’m fine, (I’m fine) that It’ll get better over time. I’ll just live my life like the rest, I can just only hope for the best, gotta stay alive I can’t take bet with my demons. Yeah I just always lie and tell everyone that I’m fine...