CANT DO LONG DISTANCE

I live 3000 miles away from heaven But she comes back In the summer To visit me I hate the distance But I can't show that it get to me Cuz what'll that do but make Everything harder for her and More of a bother for me Only thing that get in the way Is that I don't wanna Get cemented into This point in her life as a phase Recently I watched all of my trust Get pummeled to dust, Thrown away, and She's the only thing That could end this cycle of misery At least that's what I think But Everything's Not what it seems to be Summer never comes So Nothing is what it means to me And needless to say That that's the way that it has to be So I'll keep star shopping Eye balls veins popping Until this space suit run out of oxygen Cuz like thrift shopping When it's gone You can never find what you found again and What's the point if we know The consequence My life's a sold out bumper car arena Where I can't help but keep crashing It's hit or get hit So I'm out here wreaking havoc Looking for any reason If they even think about it It's automatic Sadboy Savage, tactless, detached, and problematic With as many issues as the National Geographic Cant even get on a flight to see you Cuz the airline held me to tell me The plane couldn't fit all of this baggage So Ima let you down easy I don't even want you to see me Even though I know These days are my last Out of all the Gish in the sea I made one hellava catch But I'd rather you go Than hold you back Well I always thought We were perfect For one another So I checked our zodiacs To see if it's real All that I found Was that our stars Don't all the way match We go together like pizza and milk