Surrounding Thoughts

Why I need some closure Just to heal my fucking mind I've been chained up I'm locked in, Stuck at a certain point of time Endless nightmare looking to escape This horrible point of view Yeah I'm tired Sleepless night Contributing to the question like Were you really texting me Or were you just responding I gave out my heart Not knowing what you wanted Another wasted time on lies I got this pain on my mind I hope it really fucking counted To you oh Were you really texting me Or were you just responding I gave out my heart Not knowing what you wanted F*ck getting all attached again I don't want to depend Just to get fucking broken hearted Oh You were my flower I ignored the thorns Yet again, this pain didn't seem enough To go through my head I was there for entertainment why I was dedicated For some temporary shit But I was there just to see us Fall out What was I suppose to fucking say Love me for now So I can endure the same pain That were lies and deceptions Looking at your eyes You didn't even fucking mention That you were not Loving me Why you didn't you Tell me the truth I ended up loving to lose Your petals like poison I caught on itching, i had no clue I had an addiction to love But now who can trust When I tried giving out my heart Ended receiving the lust Mixing up my Whole mind Emotions stuck Switching from Love to hating Just empty feelings I kept containing Every little thing That was said to me Mind not even free Endless thoughts like Were you really texting me Or were you just responding I gave out my heart Not knowing what you wanted Another wasted time on lies I got this pain on my mind I hope it really fucking counted To you oh Were you really texting me Or were you just responding I gave out my heart Not knowing what you wanted F*ck getting all attached again I don't want to depend Just to get fucking broken hearted Oh I'm lost in space Floating up high in my mind And Entrapped in time Yeah Alone I'll be Until I can see Cause it really f*ck everything even love Yeah It had to be oh Wasn't about to love just To pack and leave I was about it At time it was hurting deep Can't forget it how the past Can also leak Into presence In the present Now I'm out the scene oh Broken down inside thinking I found my peace But it's a lie To cover up These thought surrounding me I know That I can not be Giving out my heart to show Everything I did for you Was just so we can say goodbye Now I'm locked up inside No where I can confide It wasn't forever Why I do I question your lies Knowing it will not change a thing Between you and I But I can't stop these thoughts like Were you really texting me Or were you just responding I gave out my heart Not knowing what you wanted Another wasted time on lies I got this pain on my mind I hope it really fucking counted To you oh Were you really texting me Or were you just responding I gave out my heart Not knowing what you wanted F*ck getting all attached again I don't want to depend Just to get fucking broken hearted Oh