I Don't Wanna Waste My Life

So you wake up and go to work or school You drink coffee that tastes like piss And you think you're looking kinda cool But you don't really give a shit You make money that your only gonna use On shit you don't need or that you abuse You feel lonely and sad every fucking day And most of the time you don't feel okay How do you live your life When you want to die How do you talk to people When your first instinct is to cry How do you write a song When you're stuck worrying How do you smoke a bong When you know you won't win My mind keeps going to this special place A place that I do hate An old man lying in a hospital bed Near friends and family His thoughts are filled with deep regret And that old man is me And I don't know how to change the fact This'll happen inevitably I don't wanna waste my life on things like working Cause at the end of the day you still end up hurting And this shit scares the hell out of me And I thought about it every night Since the day I turned 9 I don't wanna waste my life I don't wanna waste my life I don't wanna waste my life I don't wanna live my life In a world that I hate And I've accepted there's no changing it So I guess I'll have to change my mind But that's not happening So I guess I'll just be miserable And I guess the whole world will know Or at least the 50ish people that listen to my songs My music won't go anywhere And people tell me to cut my hair And I don't wanna be in debt for the rest of my life So f*ck college, debt collectors, and payment plans But I know I'll be in debt for the rest of my life Cause I'm a goddamn American And I know I won't be in control of the rest of my life Cause I'll be working And I know I'll hate the rest of my life Cause I hate everything But f*ck it, whatever, I don't really care And I guess I'm happy sometimes, So I guess I won't die But that doesn't mean I like my life Whatever man, goodnight