I gotta stop with all of my hate

I don't remember making this at all, what the f*ck Yeah, why the hell am I alive Why the hell do I go ahead and do provide Why the hell do I feel like my whole life is a lie I feel like I'm in a go ahead and pop a cyanide Baby, pop the beat, maybe drink some lean Maybe tell everybody that I'm bout to bleed Got blood on my shirt, I was left in the dirt I was kicked to the curb, I was left in a hearse And I'm drowning inside of the deep fucking curse They say to put on me, bitch, feel worse I don't know how to deal with shit, I'm worthless Everybody telling me my mind is a weapon I feel like I spent the best thing grabbing all my blessings Everybody tell me that I'm losing now I don't know how to deal with shit I feel like I got blood on the ground F*ck, and I'm feeling so dumb I'm feeling so numb, bitch, I'm feeling so faded I'm grabbing the bottles and drinking the rum I feel like I ain't breathing away, wanna go back and go I just wanna head low Everybody tell me that my mind is so slow Giving it up, I feel like I'm done Ayy, fucking it up, I feel like a frog Ayy, telling everybody that I'm gonna be okay You know I don't know what to do and I'ma grab the fucking plate And I be telling people that I'm gonna be okay Been saying it till the day I die, I really wanna pop a cyanide I really wanna go ahead and aim a fucking love gun I'm allergic to it so I might as well go ahead and try Try, try, one last time Before I commit suicide I really wanna end it all and I be deaf when I fall I feel like I'm taking it back, I feel like I taste when I call And now I don't know what to do, feeling like I'm gonna go ahead I feel like I'm involved and I don't know how to go And everybody telling me that I'm playing Making violence with my emotions, every single thing that go and goes And we playing hard to seek and I can't find happiness Holy shit, I feel like I'm losing it Can't find happiness Can't find happiness Can't find happiness Playing hard to seek and I can't find happiness Playing hard to seek and I can't find happiness What did I do to deserve all this hate What did I do to deserve all this hate Can't even pay for food on the plate Can't even pay for food on the plate I'm not the type to get angry or sad over these situations But I just really feel lost, I feel so depressed I feel like my life is a lie I feel like I'm stuck Inside of This thing that we call earth But I just feel like I don't belong here I really don't think I belong here I really don't think I belong here Much love