lost

(Hahahahahaha) Lost in the ocean Led by the stars We hold them to hope Letting go through the dark Lost in the ocean Led by the stars We hold them to hope Letting go through the dark (Yeah) (Check check) (Uh, uh) (Hahahahahaha) I would have given fucking everything to see this shit grow But then I lost my own direction Couldn't let myself go Lost my grip on my throne While it drove me down the drain I can't understand this Are you leaving? F*ck, it's driving me insane Take this blade to my wrist Time to repent for the mistakes Wipe the sink clean Let's get ready for another day Paint a smile upon my face Walking through another place Uncomfortable inside my brain But it always feels this way My punishment is the pain Isolated I feel insane Nobody knows my name And when they see me They feel shame Nobody wants to help me Until I admit I that I am lost And everyone wants to hurt me No matter what the cost I feel like giving up on music Just repeat the words you're reading I can't fucking break the cycle But it's something that I'm needing I've been crying out for help Since 2000 fucking 18 I'm still crying out for help But I'm no longer a teen I'm an adult now Tell me I should figure this out But every question Just surrounds my mind with doubt I can't figure this shit out I can't do this shit on my own I'm begging you to help me I just need to find my home I always felt fucking lost No matter what the cost Everybody wants to hurt me And go lock me in the box I'm letting go of what you've done Accepting that I'm lost I'll let the world just break me down This ledge you pushed me off (The ledge you pushed me off) Lost in the ocean Led by the stars (Uh) We hold them to hope Letting go through the dark (I'm lost, I'm lost!) Lost in the ocean Led by the stars We hold them to hope Letting go through the dark (Yeah, uh) I would have given fucking everything For myself to succeed But every time I pick myself up I get knocked down to my knees This world is so cruel, everybody has to plead Just to grasp the glimpse of happiness That's always out of reach F*ck that shit No I'm never looking back to the past I hated my own face So I would always wear this mask Representing all my trauma and the shit I hide away I know that I can't run forever But I'm trying to find a way See I've always felt fucking hurt I'm used to the taste of the dirt Everybody seems to watch my world as it burns But the lyrics always hide All of the lessons I have learned I'm looking towards the future Cause this is my chance to earn Earn a name for myself While I'm going through this hell All these sirens in my head Have got me under a spell I can't fucking break this cycle But there's something I'm forgetting I can't move on with the past When I feel myself regretting Every action every moment every step that I will take I've been walking through the chaos But the storms about to break So if I reach the golden gates Will I be judged for my mistakes Or will I be rewarded for the pain I hide behind a smiling face I think about it all too often, what will happen when I die? I think about it all to often, will I be lonely all the time? I'm running out of time to write but that's just what it cost I had to write to let you know the world will not be lost (lost, lost, lost)