am I alive?

Sometimes I find when I'm alone crazy thoughts'll just fill my mind The voice inside my head said I'll be dead yet I'm just killing time Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die? I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I fly Why am I stuck all by myself while these crazy thoughts fill my mind, wake up every morning stumbling im wondering will I die I promise you won't know what you can accomplish until you try All these attempts to slow me up hold me down, but still I fly Oh my, look to the sky It's a bird no it's a plane wait, like nah that's just the kid and all this worry lurk my brain It's so cloudy in my head, it gets worse than hurricanes This purple rain won't show no mercy 'til the whole world heard the name I won't stop until the world is changed The pot I burn some purple strains, Wish I could reverse the pain I flirt with death I'm worthless wait that's only just the words they say Sometimes I'd prefer to die, damn that'd be a perfect day I think I deserve to die anything to take the hurt away yeah Hm, I trip for the perspective a bit obsessive its excessive Yes you'd guess it's schizophrenic You stress and hate but reassess Reflect your insecurities it's offensive and did I mention I heard behind my back people said they wanna kill me Fuckin' do it then That's all I want just being honest why do you pretend? I could use a friend Suicide through my head, what the f*ck to do instead? What the f*ck did you expect? Where were you to prevent? Said I feel like dying why wait 'til I'm truly dead Pursuit for overdue respect Depressed I do confess I'm stressed 'cause I don't get why I get too upset I been through a lot I guess you never knew me then yeah I don't know what else to do No one help but I'm selfish too Feels like you been through hell oh well myself I've felt it too Why do they love to complain expecting something to change? Don't give a f*ck what they say I'm out of luck just stuck in my ways but nothings the same I'm fuckin' insane had enough of the pain Lost in my mind Killin' time Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die? I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I fly Why am I stuck all by myself while these crazy thoughts fill my mind Wake up every morning stumbling im wondering will I die I promise you won't know what you can accomplish until you try All these attempts to slow me up hold me down, but still I fly Why? Oh, why? Why? Why am I alive? Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die? I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I fly Why am I stuck all by myself while these crazy thoughts fill my mind Wake up every morning stumbling im wondering will I die I promise you won't know what you can accomplish until you try All these attempts to slow me up hold me down, but still I fly Sometimes I find when I'm alone crazy thoughts'll just fill my mind The voice inside my head said I'll be dead yet I'm just killing time Well yeah I've taken drugs I wonder like f*ck, shit, will I die? I've taken way too many drugs I can't function but still I