relapse.

If nothing ever last, then why does it even matter I'm bullied every day, and it's fine, it doesn't matter As long as you're okay, babe, I hope that I don't matter I'm here, but you're gone, and its pain that I feel I wish I was gone from the earth, and that's real I don't understand how this pain can still last Last from the past, it's the last of a cast All the pain that you gave, from the shit that you caused Caused from the sores of the core, of the break up everything was perfect then you fucked it up and cheated Cheated on me, and you leave, that's how you leave it Crying, sitting here, wondering, why'd you leave me here, all alone In my room, without your tears, self harm is my option as it helps, f*ck off please I don't wanna be a burden, but I am, and you're glad I hope you understand, I don't wanna see you sad Why do I got to try, when I already did Knife in the rib, why do I have to exist Life is a bitch, I hope that I see this I hate waking up to see the sunlight exist We're all gonna die right, that's how it goes Nothing ever mattered, it's all a fucking joke Life's a simulation, and I hope I fucking choke From the rope, that drops from the noose of the coat I know that sounds funny, but that's just how it is I tried to slit my wrist, when I was just six I tried to go on a deal, with pain, and I did I turned out alright, but I still need help with it I'm trying to exist, in a world full of kids I'm trying to exist, in a world full of cigs Slit my wrist with the blade, that I kept from my dad In my bed, that I used every night, it was sad I need something to stop the pain, that I felt I don't know why, my life is full of hell I want it to stop, but I know I never will The blade's the only thing, that made me fucking heal The gun and the blade, they helped, and that's great I want her to come back, but I know she never will She probably wants me dead, and she probably wants me killed I pray she's doing great, while I'm here standing in the rain