Sleepless Nights (Remake)

If nothing even happens, then what doesn't even matter I'm bullied every day, and it's fine, doesn't matter As long as you're okay, babe, I hope that I don't matter I'm here, but you're gone, and this pain that I feel I wish I was gone from the earth, and that's real I don't understand how this pain gets to last Last from the past, it's the last from the past All the pain that you gave, from the shit that you caused Caused from the sores of the core, as it broke up We had it all perfect, and you came and you cheated Cheated on me, and you leave, so you leave it Crying, sitting here, wondering, why'd you leave me here, all alone In my room, without your tears, so far miss my option Cause it helps, f*ck off please I don't wanna be a burden, but I am, and you're glad I hope you understand, I don't wanna see you sad If you wanna leave me, then just go home If you wanna leave me here, I'm at home Why do I gotta try, when I already did Knife in the rib, why do I have to exist Life is a bitch, I hope that I see this I hate waking up to see the sunlight exist We're all gonna die right, that's how it goes Nothing ever mattered, it's all a fucking joke Life simulation, and I hope I fucking choke From the rope, that drops from the noose of the coat I know this sounds funny, but that's just how it is I tried to slit my wrist, when I was just six I tried to go on a deal, with pain, and I did I turned out alright, but I still need help with it I'm trying to exist, in a world full of dicks I'm trying to exist, in a world full of six Slit my wrist with the blade, that I kept from my dad In my bed, that I used every night, it was sad I need something to stop the pain, that I felt I don't know why, my life is full of hell I wanted to stop, but I know I never will The blade's the only thing, that made me fucking heal The blade and the noose, they helped, and that's great I wanted to come back, but I know she never will She probably wants me dead, and she probably wants me killed I pray for being great, while I'm here standing awake But it's too late to go If you wanna leave, we stay in my home