los angeles

you’re out in los angeles i’m still stuck at home you’re out drinkin jack and i’m betting you’ll take him home you’re out making memories some of them you’ll regret but nothing can match the feeling of spending time with your friends you’re out there for your dreams you don’t care what people think but you’re cutting me so deep to the bone you’re out there sharing laughs i’m having panic attacks and hoping i’ll get you back but i won’t i lost my voice from all the screaming i’m so terrified one day you’ll leave me like my mother i’m so traumatized these things i do remind me who i never wanna be sometimes its hard to believe, i see my mother in me you didn’t say anything now i’m overthinkin i was bout to go to sleep instead i’m up an drinkin don’t make me double up i don’t need another cup i’d tell you how i’ve been but i know you don’t give a cause you don’t ever text you don’t ever call i spent way to many nights drinkin alcohol i get way to in my head but you know that smokin in your bed takes me way back i don’t wanna text i don’t wanna call i sent one the other day i got no response i can’t take another hit i’ll be so sad i wish it was good but its all bad don’t tell me you love me if you prolly won’t the next month don’t act like you want me and then treat me like a no one make me think i’m lucky and then leave me in the dust huh make me fall for you then act like you don’t give a f*ck you’re out in los angeles i’m still stuck at home you’re out drinkin jack and i’m betting you’ll take him home you’re out making memories some of them you’ll regret but nothing can match the feeling of spending time with your friends you’re out there for your dreams you don’t care what people think but you’re cutting me so deep to the bone you’re out there sharing laughs i’m having panic attacks and hoping i’ll get you back but i won’t