lifeless

I'm fuckin done with this life shit I'd be a liar if I tried to be on hype shit Call myself a rapper but I barely ever write shit Just quietly sit resenting that I live like this I'm not righteous just another dumb nihilist I'm done fighting, let me hate myself in silence If you try to help me I'll interpret it as violence I fantasize about the day I'm laying somewhere lifeless F*ck all of y'all who get to have nice things And have an idea what it means to feel excitement And function in the real world and believe you do the right thing Or are capable of more than uninspired whining F*ck a lover 'cause I'm never gonna find it Glad to hear you did though, sike bitch I wanna knife him F*ck men, f*ck women, f*ck non-binaries End my life right now, I doubt that any of you'd cry for me I'm sure it's trite to be a misanthropic whitey Consciously wasting life and then asking "why me?" Is it even worth sharing this? Not likely But f*ck it, may as well scare away the few who like me I'm sorry if my thoughts are unsightly I really should stick to hiding them in irony 'Til I don't even know what I think anymore I can't stand these memories of who I was before And who I am now I'll probably look back on the same way Embarrassed that I lived these repetitions of the same day But hey, f*ck it, nothing matters anyway So maybe it'll be okay If I just stay enabling indefinite delay on getting to a better place I've got no right to complain when I fall flat on my face The world's not my safe space so f*ck all of it And f*ck me too for ever expecting more of it