fight (feat. 4lexf)

Sometimes I'm sitting feeling heavy feeling not alive Sometimes I'm thinking feeling empty brink of suicide Often things get heavy but the pain show thru my eyes Sometimes it's just my personality, but you don't see my eyes When I'm alone I'm thinking what I'm doing bout my life I think you Think you see my truth but my life's a lie I cry I cry I cry I cry I cry every single night I know but when I see you I see that shining light What's the point with the pain that's going thru my life You know I make that joke but everything's a fight I try to be so normal but all I do is die When I see that mirror I fall back to my burning thighs I know you see what's wrong in the things I write I can feel your eyes on me judging every sight Don't think I don't know why my life's a bitch Cuz I break my back trying not to cut my wrists You don't know what goes on with my anxieties Social purpose will just never be my reality When I look at you I think of who I used to be A kid not afraid to smile but they stole my leaf I used to shine so bright above like the fucking stars Now I sit here trying to cover up all my scars Tears soaked in long sleeves in the backseat of your car I try to be that constellation that you really are Bright blue green eyes, a super smile, a surprise A picture perfect reflection of everything I try to hide I know it might seem stupid in everyone else's eyes But I just can't be me, cuz everything I do is a fight What is my purpose, god, why did you put that person in my sight A person who could smile brighter than everything alive A little girl who smiled but people broke her down and made her cry Why can't I be what he is, why did I lose my smile?