Not Here in the Now

Two drinks in, you're out I'm sober on the couch It's fine, I'm used to it I'm also used to quiet But to be really honest It's starting to freak me out Been working on myself It feels like fucking hell Wish you would hold me now Truth is I did it to me I severed my reality I'm not here in the now Not here in the now Turnin' around, leavin' this town Yeah, Imma split man Ain't got a reason to stay All the memories makin' me sick, man Jump out the back, you taught me that Yeah, I've been holdin' all these fuckin' tricks in Now it's fuckin' killin' me Je suis desole Jai laisse lanxiete La controler Je ne suis pas moi pas present Not here in the now Not here in the now Not here in the now Not here in the now Cried every day this week I bet you think I'm weak Don't you now? I'm sorry that was mean Truth is I don't trust me How could I trust you now? When everyone you know Abandons all your growth Makes it feel like I'm the one who should go Can you help me go to sleep? I need something good to dream Cause I'm not here in the now Not here in the now Not here in the now