Growing Pains

Yeah, I got growing pains Growing up hurts Feeling too much I think I love her But I don't know, I guess Wish I knew for sure For now, I'll hold my breath While I submerge In all these questions That I ponder Linger in my head Stay unanswered Got to get a grip Stay calm, breathe slow, don't trip Talking to me doesn't work, figures I got way too many problems at this age Yeah, contemplating what I want like every day Stuck in this battle with my own internal pain Time to Time, it might fade But it's always back, eventually I just want to know what life will bring, ayy I just want to know what loving means Because all I know is trynna love somebody doesn't ever make sense It's a pain in my chest, chronically And it's hard When somebody tells me that I really gotta be smart "She could ruin your life She could rip out your heart She could tear you all apart Have you wishing- no Praying for a restart, yeah" And I'm terrified Don't know what decision's right People telling me that I deserve more, I might Maybe I'm just in denial of what I'm choosing I'm trying really hard, but I can't make up my mind, I I got growing pains Growing up hurts Feeling too much I think I love her But I don't know, I guess Wish I knew for sure For now, I'll hold my breath While I submerge In all these questions That I ponder Linger in my head Stay unanswered Got to get a grip Stay calm, breathe slow, don't trip Talking to me doesn't work Figures I'm a mess and my life got me triggered I mean, I'm only 17, so I barely know a thing And it's hard for me to see the bigger picture I'm just trynna be careful Like you told me, I'm just trynna be careful But I'm running into all these different things That have got me questioning What I want, what I need, what I'm here for Here we go again Honestly, I'm getting kinda fed up with the pressure Honestly, it feels like you don't always match the effort But I'm always putting forward Maybe they got in my head Or maybe I'm just too dramatic It's whatever Yeah, sometimes I wish I could shrug it off Simply move us right along My emotions get too strong, I think I got bad habits The understanding of my thoughts, I won't ever have it Somebody make me invisible Damaging overly critical Somebody get me a gun in a bullet Don't ask what you gotta go get it for I wanna love you to feel it more Make me feel like I got worth Occasionally, I want to leave earth I don't wanna be hurt, too scared to get burned I don't want to live with the pain I already got I got growing pains Growing up hurts Feeling too much I think I love her But I don't know, I guess Wish I knew for sure For now, I'll hold my breath While I submerge In all these questions That I ponder Linger in my head Stay unanswered Got to get a grip Stay calm, breathe slow, don't trip Talking to me doesn't work, figures Figures, figures Yeah, figures