NOT ENOUGH (feat. Retrax)

Yeah, I think I'm losing my mind as I fall asleep Can't make myself feel alright, this ain't helping me I stay up all night thinking if I should let this be Can't escape it 'cause it still does haunt me in my dreams I get so mad at myself when I think about all of these questions "what if?" Man, I know if I could have I would have There ain't no questioning it I've been working on myself And I feel like Im doing too much A day goes by And I feel I ain't doing enough I'm on my knees, crying out "Lord help me, please, I'm tired now" I need that peace to find out What's inside of me, It's time now Taking a step back I dont expect anything to go the way I want it to Maybe I held back Too much when I should have let it go like I wanted to My life's a mess, I'm kinda stressed I don't wanna think of anything 'Cause all I think about is negative I feel like there ain't no helping it My mind is wandering every minute Every topic going 'round, it's spinning Then I come back to the same beginning The cycle repeats and that's how I'm living Yeah, I think I'm losing my mind as I fall asleep Can't make myself feel alright, this ain't helping me I stay up all night thinking if I should let this be Can't escape it 'cause it still does haunt me in my dreams I think I'm losing my mind as I fall asleep Can't make myself feel alright, this ain't helping me I stay up all night thinking if I should let this be Can't escape it 'cause it still does haunt me in my dreams I think I'm losing my mind 'cause it's hard to sleep Got a lot of things I'm questioning "Is is everybody depressed like me?" I don't want to feel it, I'm killing it while I'm killing me And covering up the real me I don't want to still be Stuck here sad, not able to make anyone around me happy Anybody fill me? Even when I'm winning, feel like everyone a critic Even everyone I live with doesn't get it, people Trippin And they tell me I should stop all this pretend, and make a living But I guess nobody really comprehending on my vision Got me feeling like I'm crumbling heavily But I'll never be the gimmick of a stumbling family I'm a better me, I give it to the melody therapy No amphetamine, I spit it for the people like me Who don't feel like they're enough This is for everyone up all night wondering If their mind ever stops running like NASCAR's Like they sit on the edge of the seat with anxiety Only wishing on the bad stars And I hate the way living just feels like it's empty Wish I could go back far to me in the backyard Eating PB&J with no worries 'for I had a sad heart Holding too much and I don't let it out Till I feel like I'm already gone, ayy Critically Judge and I fill me with doubt Maybe there's something I should be on Convince me that I'm not enough and I worry too much Always hard on myself even though that I know that it's wrong If you be feeling the same, then stand up and sing along Yeah, I think I'm losing my mind as I fall asleep Can't make myself feel alright, this ain't helping me I stay up all night thinking if I should let this be Can't escape it 'cause it still does haunt me in my dreams I think I'm losing my mind as I fall asleep Can't make myself feel alright, this ain't helping me I stay up all night thinking if I should let this be Can't escape it 'cause it still does haunt me in my dreams