Polaroid

This is Not what I wanted Goin back, to the things I was runnin' from I can't keep takin back habits that steered me away from what needs to be seen I Gazed amazed at our polaroiddd I can feel the void in my stomach Like paranoia in my sick brainnnnn Noisy memories make me vomit Unlikely you'll feel my pain No one's ever felt it like this So i hide from everything that pisses me off And you have no control who's the boss Yep yep yep Yep yep yep That's my thoughts Yep yep yep Yep yep yep Looks take you a long way With people that have no inner meaning This is everything you wanted I can't take These scary risk this is the conjuring There are shadows of you In every new doorway I step in But I'll still step in My dulled down armor is protection With you the worst things I have dealt with So how the f*ck will I progress Reminisce everything we made up Including words while looking at the birds Can't put on pages Back with another sob story Everydamn second to tell Laid off the drugs a lot bit Rotten dirty hearts is stinking Don't worry bout me and the best I can do Knowing me I'll do enough for me anddd you Knowing me I'll do enough for me and you Not what I wanted not what I wanted Not what I wanted not what I wanted This is Not what I wanted Goin back, to the things I was runnin' from I can't keep takin back habits that steered me away from what needs to be seen I Gazed amazed at our polaroiddd I can feel the void in my stomach Noisy memories make me vomit Noisy memories make me vomit Things you try hard to forget Will come right back so please just keep running So heres my advisory Keep my confidence on the low But keep your eyes wide for me Always keep on searching till you find find find Find that one of one that don't mind taking the ride Ride ride Not what I wanted, Not What I wanted This is, This is uh This is Not what I wanted Not what I wanted