Bowl of Happy

Expected cruelty, only received kindness Expected the usual blows, only got a caress You brought me flowers or my favorite food I was constantly floored by your generous soul Into your eyes I could read love for me Surprised at feeling seen You listened to me How curious you were about the things that moved me Bowl of happy We were a bowl of happy I had a smile in my belly for two and a half years Bowl of happy, happy It was a death I knew it You and I would live, but 'we' would die I couldn't imagine a bond so pretty could no longer be I had never been cared for, too sad to cry, I was losing my only love Felt myself falling through that void I could have cried with gratitude at the denial that saved me My heart couldn't face reality The only person who got me, the warmest bond I had felt Bowl of happy We were a bowl of happy Oh oh oh smile oh oh oh oh I had a smile in my belly for two and a half years Bowl of happy, happy Happy But I trust God now because she gave me you Happy And if she takes you back then I will let you go In my heart, there are posters of you everywhere Happy You changed my blueprint, conditioned me to be loved and treated fairly Have my needs met instead of dismissed, no words could do it justice Happy Like a dog who used to cower in fear and now is playing and jumping for joy I don't know how to thank you, no words would do it justice I'll love you forever, I wish you only joy