ER!

That's the day you put a bullet between my eyes I'm sorry Please have that on record Last night my friend had a dream that I died Now she's blowing up my phone Just to make sure I'm alive Lately I've been living to do more than just survive And her ringtone on my pulse Is flatlining like a tide I'm so afraid of being hollow An imposter wearing the face of someone you used to know Almost gave my fake ID in the emergency room And I think a part of me died that night The part that would've called you And I hope you think of me fondly When I'm not around Cause I'm starting to feel like a ghost In my home town They found a body across the street from my dorm And cleaned it up so fast I thought I made it up Just to have something to mourn My bed feels like a coffin Every time I fall asleep And while he's six feet under I get cold feet beneath my sheets That's what you get for moving to the city This is who you are now Suck up the nitty-gritty Almost gave my fake ID in the emergency room And I think a part of me died that night The part that would've called you And I hope you think of me fondly When I'm not around Cause I'm starting to feel like a ghost In my home town The way it follows me Like the grim reaper's just one of my old drinking buddies But here I am Making it about me How can I say that I wanna die Looking at a dead body? Almost gave my fake ID in the emergency room And I think a part of me died that night A part I needed to lose And I hope you're not angry That I'm not around Cause I never felt at home in my hometown