Like a Dream

Hangin on to what I got left But y'all don't understand all the pain that's in my chest And mama never cared if I made it out west She just want some money so that she can smoke her meth Ain't my place to judge her shit we all just human beings Maybe I still love her but she far away from me And my baby brother said he tryna be like me I know It's hard to recover when that trauma like a dream Tryna see tomorrow but I'm screaming f*ck today Tryna feed my aura but I struggle with the pain Tryna see tomorrow but I'm stuck on yesterday Tryna heal the trauma imma smoke that shit away Ain't nobody there when you down and need some help I don't really care if you was there for me or not I been on my own truthfully since I was 12 Yeah this house ain't a home mom and daddy smokin rock Contemplate a lot Like what is a family Mama blackin out Overdosed on xanny pills I been stressing out Ain't nobody there for me Grippin on the glock Losin all my sanity Hangin on to what I got left But y'all don't understand all the pain that's in my chest And mama never cared if I made it out west She just want some money so that she can smoke her meth Ain't my place to judge her shit we all just human beings Maybe I still love her but she far away from me And my baby brother said he tryna be like me I know It's hard to recover when that trauma like a dream Maybe I need faith But that don't seem realistic I'm goin insane You tell me who isn't Tryna ease the pain So I'm getting lifted Love me here today Make me think you different I'm just tryna live I ain't never had the chance Y'all don't see the tears or the blood across my hands Barely made it here I'm surprised that I can stand I don't even have no fear they should kill me bout the grams Music is my drug yeah that's how I cope with life Maybe you don't get it I been thinking suicide Ain't no friends or family to hold me when I cry So I'm struggling alone every mothafuckin night Hangin on to what I got left But y'all don't understand all the pain that's in my chest And mama never cared if I made it out west She just want some money so that she can smoke her meth Ain't my place to judge her shit we all just human beings Maybe I still love her but she far away from me And my baby brother said he tryna be like me I know It's hard to recover when that trauma like a dream