social anxiety

Had real anxiety, people always trying me Take a couple pills lay in bed I be flying Headaches everyday to the point feel like dying They ask if I'm good I respond with a lie Cause no one really cares they just ask to be nice Talking to my girl what is on your mind Please open up, let me in your life Even if it's not with me then talk to your best friend Doesn't matter who it is just please get the message RIP to my uncle, forever the greatest Sorry I let you down I'm trying to make changes I push people away and go on dnd My mind is a time bomb, heart snd Both my parents left me, I'm a major disappointment Born with epilepsy, kinda hard to focus I don't like to party, I don't like to drink Sorry but that party life just ain't for me I'd rather stay in and read a couple books I don't care if you think I'm boring and give me dirty looks Anti social kid yeah never really fit in Never really had any friends to begin with Never had my first kiss or went to a dance All I ever dreamt of was a couple racks on my lap But now I got girlfriend and a couple friends I couldn't be more thankful for the time that we spend Remember back then when I didn't have anything Didn't have clothes or food, I had nothing Gotta stay thankful I know that I'm blessed Shout out to my grandma put some respect Really went from broken to maintaining Not a 100% healed but I swear I'm changing