everything you need (you already have)

I trusted that leaping through the portal would help me But I've been chewing the same cheap meal each day to find some form of consistency A friend said I can cultivate my new life when I get back But I've never been able to keep a plant alive Another reminds me to inhale deep But It's dense to breathe when heaping bodies are consuming all the oxygen I need I feel confined in the web though I've never been more physically free Cut off from this deadpan society there are over 800 cities around me How can one not feel small in such an immeasurable room Despite how many books I read I never quite find the expression that fits me The dim cloud looms in my language In between each blurred line and shallow crack Always fixing my gaze on the lack Overlooking these ethereal moments that I'll never get back This town sweeps up the bleak into an old dustpan If this couldn't save me what possibly can You will see that everything that you need You have already You will see that everything that you need You have already