Nobody

I been countin' my blessings, writin' with no ending F*ck defending pretending, man I'm ascending Since childhood I been misunderstood If I could change myself I would, this bottle does no good Back in elementary, unfriendly memories Taunted by the other kids cause' I thought different Bullies snatched my dignity, had no group activity Man I sat miserably, this is me, a nobody Fake friends are enemies, they frenemies Don't mess with me, no empathy Think you tough cause you got a felony I sided with the angels did myself a favor Ink on a paper, this is something greater Wanted to be everything that I was not Headphones on and I watch, kids smoke pot and get caught by the cops Sit in the same spot and jot Thoughts saying end it with a gunshot, one shot And I'm gone, carry on, friend or foe I don't trust what you show, love or lust I don't know, just let go Since birth I been trying to leave this earth We all end up in the dirt, that's how much we worth Workin' for a branded shirt, poppin' pills to ease the hurt Kill others to be first, then we show up at church Bible in our hand, hopin' He'll understand But the Devil settles in our mental, then we fall and tremble Love is absent, just one night stands that's it Stop askin', they lackin', the passion, just actin' And maskin', and that's it, I've had it God damn it, can't stand it, I don't understand it, I quit Nothing above, I've had enough, take a puff On the bus, cold cuts take my trust, make myself adjust Been declined, many times, left behind, out of mind I just say it's fine, no replies, no surprise F*ck acceptance, kids always ignored my presence Left prom in 20 minutes with a lesson I can't be accepted, this solitude was destined Maybe that's a blessin', but I always question the depression Now you only see me talkin' to these Beasts To ease my pain and get relief, to treat my grief and Keep my peace, to live the streets and feel the breeze Soulless bodies, they're all copies, what does God see Beyond me, upon me, respond please Sided with the angels did myself a favor Ink on a paper, this is something greater Wanted to be everything that I was not Headphones on and I watch, kids smoke pot and get caught by the cops Sit in the same spot and jot, thoughts saying end it with a gunshot, one shot And I'm gone, carry on, friend or foe I don't trust what you show, love or lust I don't know, just let go I wasn't there in the first place, the odd shape The one that couldn't fit straight, relate or communicate All I saw were snakes and fakes, kids with powder in their face Too much drama I need a break, to go find an escape I look around, sex, drugs, money is what its about Please shut your mouth, every kid lookin' for some clout Damn their parents must be proud, watchin' their kids blow clouds Sell drugs around town, snort lines off the ground I get that you're young, and you want smoke in your lungs While you blast lil' Pump on the sidewalk getting drunk I will never understand why you do what you do And why I can't be like you, and step in your shoes Got use to being the lonely owl on the tree Who sees everything differently, and vividly Who has the ability to live invisibly, unwillingly But I guess this is me, just another nobody