seasonal sincerities

i have a feelin' i have too many feelings n I’d let it go but i want you to know that you weren’t always my maybe thoughts weren’t always this hazy look at the way winters paint a city cold and the way snowflakes twirl suddenly I’m your girl, mm baby got caught up in a way so i’d ask you to stay and i think you thought i was magic when we’d make love from across the room n i can’t say i even wanted it that way spirits gain control, i always loose there you were, my spring when i loved you more than love could love (love could love) did you not see the way i looked in your eyes nothin could tear us ...sort of feelings say it’s sure until it isn’t and i’m drifting like i always do just facin' my skin, reckless n selling these paper-thin, broken promises…stems from roots we were growin' like i forgot planted silhouettes for hearts n yet i stop n i get honest i get second 2 types of thoughts n i write a lot and now i haven’t slept in 2 days anxious thinkin’ about 2 ways this could go, i learn, i unlearn your willingness to believe and my pretending to be summer sunsets setting back and i’m trying to rewind but it’s fading, we can smoke joints back to back in the courtyard n hate it you hate it, we hate it lettin time sense extinction silence speaks loud and we don’t hear shit, no wanna hug you tell you it’s all alright leaves change colors like it’s thoughts in my mind so if your still awake don’t be the quiet one at the party, cuz i be hurtin' you I’m sorry n i’m sorry go, go dance in the night with all these other women n scar me in my blue bandana now go scar me don’t pick me up, i’m sorry and now i haven’t slept in 2 days anxious thinkin’ about 2 ways this could go, i learn, i unlearn your willingness to believe and my pretending to be and now i haven’t slept in 2 days anxious thinkin’ about 2 ways this could go, i learn, i unlearn your willingness to believe