what i tried to save

(Hello?) (Where are you?) (Here) (I'm right over here) I saw the end, would you ever look back? All the time we spent, if I gave you half, would you make some sense? Thought we'd share a laugh, maybe two if best So I'll try to keep track, all the good of it Wish I could make it last, but I'd give a shit 'Bout a fucked up past, could I take the hit? Never made of glass, but you seemed to see right through But maybe I knew, maybe it all came around from all that I do Maybe could've asked for something other than you, how could I let that loose? Then I got caught up with somebody that I ain't want to lose Keep the fear that I choose, tripping 'bout what I kept And you saw it, you were always trying to keep me in check I could say that I'm blessed, spitting lies from the neck With the spirits burning up whatever's stuck in my breath Try to breathe, now I'm out scared, seeing straight, finally All this fake shit, figured what I thought you'd be How I'd shape it, it all came from honesty And like probably, I regret it most That I let this happen after all I've seen I kept hurting me, but you wouldn't know That you lost something good just to stay a hoe, I've been here before Here before, I've been here before Act like respect was something strange, hate that it's what I tried to save It's a different type of pain to know that you won't ever change I never knew you, never knew the mind behind the face Now I'm in disarray, how you would cover everyday With overstimulated thoughts, I'd always think of you that way The last thing that I told you, think it's slowly turning out That I ain't ever had that feeling, just too scared for solo routes And now I sit and think that I was better off alone, Never should've let it happen, never should've kept you close 'Cause you go and repeat it with whichever guy you hold I could shame you for a lot, but I ain't tripping for a hoe Ain't tripping for a hoe, it wasn't hard to let you go Never wanted us to happen, never heard the shit I told Acted like I gave a shit, write it down just to admit It turns out I lost a person that didn't really exist