April 24th

April twenty-fourth the day my life it changed forever Gotta change my ways and now I gotta chase the cheddar I don't wanna struggle like my brother shit be sad Don't even look up to him don't look up to my dad Telling my mom everyday I'm gon' do what I can She said it's okay to cry I know she got my back I know I'm the middle child and sometimes I feel left out Times I feel alone and my anxiety be stressing out I just gotta step up to the plate so you can listen I be hopping on these instrumentals they don't listen They keep tryna play me my old shit but I won't listen I don't even give a f*ck 'bout bitches in my mentions I just hang around with one he just be in my circle Shout out to my brudda he told me that we gon' work it out Just got off the phone he told me it's okay don't stress it now You be thankful cause all this shit be a blessing now Moment I got older I realized I don't need friends I just got my brudda and he with me till the end He ain't my blood brother no I don't call him my friend We be like mob ties the way we locked in 4life I just asked my mom like can we talk and then I cried Hurts me every time I hug my momma I start crying I gave her a hug I feel like I let her down Momma I'm so sorry you can't see me with a gown I know there's still time but I gotta wait my turn Momma I just gotta save my money make it work I just see you struggle every day and this shit hurt I'm looking up to you in this whole parent thing it work Momma I'm so sorry but I gotta get my own Just got off the phone and then I gotta hit the road I don't even talk to my dads side it's getting old Every day I wake up live my life I say let's go I just go to work then I get off and do the same shit I don't even care I gotta stack my money save it I just gotta focus on my self I gotta lane switch Gotta stay my distance all the dummy's they be fakin I don't even care about they feelings they be snaking I lost a few friends now you know why they be hating Yeah I might've snaked them too I'm seeing who they hang with They say they my brudda I look at them why you faking? I don't want you to lie don't go tell me lies I want this to work it's gon' be alright I know that you scared it's gon' be alright Telling my whole life now I'm in for the ride