Gaslight Me

Why am I such a fucking coward? Why do I hesitate? What does it make me - a lesser than? Any less than you? You don't know what I've been through And you never will Second best Yeah I'm always second best though Overlooked Yeah I'm always overlooked though So I walk away Always seems to walk away though Sometimes it takes time to learn who you really are and what you're worth My mind doesn't help me out I'm so alone and scared again Lie to myself Why do I lie to myself? Watchable in a car crash kind of way Teeth like coffins The whites of your eyes Misery is blue Why do I bleed red? Got concrete shoes on and I'm sinking All I ever do is hide All I ever do is hide my feelings inside They're safe there My mind doesn't help me out I'm so alone and scared again Lie to myself Why do I lie to myself? I can't keep going on I can't keep doing this to myself It's unsustainable It's not helping me reach all of my goals So I say goodbye