Drunk & Lost

I was drunk and lost In my own thoughts Way to many knots Can't untie those I gotta numb away the pain I gotta make me feel so sane That I can come and face it all Cause right now I feel so small Lost in a glass, Drunk Tryna find a way, Lost Got some new pills, Blunt How to go on, Soft I'm just tryna figure my life I'm just tryna figure what's right I'm just tryna figure how to feel something again Sit in the bar, smoking cigar Drinking till out, feeling bizarre I was alone, and I was drunk and lost Drunk Lost Numb Thought Brushing my mind, what did I do wrong Where was THIS, sacrificial wrongful turn Just more PILLS, that I'm shoving down the throat My life doesn't seem to have a goddamn u-turn Can't spare me a dime, my money - my rhymes Got no food to eat, just life full of need Yeah I know you won't understand, cause I am what I am Can never change that Just stick to the plan That I drew in my head, we all do that, instead Of accepting the relentless painful truth Of no meaning to the weird ass reboot That we calling out life, tho it's really divine It's so weird yet it's mine And right now, I'm in control Tho I'm killing myself, but you know, gotta let go, and do what I want I'm just tryna figure my life I'm just tryna figure what's right I'm just tryna figure how to feel something again Sit in the bar, smoking cigar Drinking till out, feeling bizarre I was alone, and I was drunk and lost This really screwed me up for time being Made it hard to understand my feeling And I'm lying in my room with my body giving While my mind is just so painfully vivid Against it's self, it doesn't understand That I'm no god, that I'm just a man Who tries to own to his words And tries to get through his thoughts I'm just tryna figure my life I'm just tryna figure what's right I'm just tryna figure how to feel something again Sit in the bar, smoking cigar Drinking till out, feeling bizarre I was alone, and I was drunk and lost Everything is lost And I'm going home Just to find myself All alone I'm between two roads Don't know where to go Tryna find the way To make me whole I'm just tryna figure my life I'm just tryna figure what's right I'm just tryna figure how to feel something again Sit in the bar, smoking cigar Drinking till out, feeling bizarre I was alone, and I was drunk and lost