Vent

Humbled by the past No more shame to carry Grateful for the present It's a gift of many Calm thoughts toward the future No more time to worry I'm the pilot of my life This is my journey I spend so much time by my lonely I can't trust anybody people phony Feeling like everybody wants to lie to me Everyday I've been dealing with anxiety But I keep it cool I still get up I put on a smile I put on a front I hit the bar I fill up a cup Hoping the alcohol will drown the pain Random people steady dapping me up But that shit makes me feel way to exposed Like if they heard of me and seen me before Did they see me wear these clothes before That's not the shit that fucks with my head What fucks with my head is that I don't know I hated that Marcus was my only fan Now I wish it was just still me and my bro Chasing my dreams now I'm getting close My heart's getting colder and I'm losing hope Sometimes I think that God messed with my heart So I don't use drugs to cope Ohh ohh Ohh ohh Ohh ohh Yea Yea yea yea yea yea Oh Feeling so conflicted I don't know what I want now It's like the music people listen to nowdays Is so dumbed down I do this shit for the art All of my shit has meaning I do this shit from the heart Got to kill these demons like Kenan I'm a motherfucking G yea I mean it And not cause I'm drinking syrup and leaning Not cause I'm smoking weed and buzzing I'm not screaming gang gang with my cousin I'm not hitting licks or nothing I'm just being myself I'm not fronting And these niggas hating that If they could grab my life they'd take it back They see that I'm winning They see that I'm getting They hate that I rap Cause they got to fake it to make it While I just go ape on the track F*ck it I'm keeping my tunnel vision Like I'm Kodak Black Rest in peace to XXX Niggas want to kill you off When you the best nigga Damn Kill you off when you the best nigga But I I try to stay focused and motivated Even though I know that I'm the most hated Even when people keep on throwing shade I know that shit will all go away Old friends turned their back on me That's where I feel the most pain I hope that shit goes away God damn I feel so betrayed When you had nothing to your name I was the only one that would help All the cards that I was dealt I still looked out for everyone else Like am I fool for looking out For motherfuckers that I once cared about The only time I hear about them now Is when they got my name in their fucking mouth Ohh ohh Ohh ohh Uh Yea yea yea yea yea Yea I can't lie I'm knee deep in this game It feels like do or die Almost feel like the things I want to do in life Requires suicide On my knees I'ma say a prayer God why did you even make me Why can't I just be happy F*ck damn I think I'm going crazy It is what it is man I got to fight this battle Cause I got a son now My family relying on me to take them out the slums now I am the one now My stepdad kicked me out the house for no reason But that motherfucker's a bum now And that motherfucker's so dumb now But I don't give a f*ck I'm up now My baby momma looks out for me In ways that I can not even express aye Even if we don't end up together I'ma make sure that she can still flex aye My mission's to make sure that Lo Lo Can say that his dad's the best aye Ohh Ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh Ohh ohh Ohh ohh ohh Ohh ohh ohh