bioluminescent blood ritual

Is there any other way That this can go All my clever words misspent And I don't wanna fight again So I drive around And listen to the static Cigarette between my teeth The taste of coffee and nicotine It's a bad excuse But at least it calms me down All the thoughts that seem to press This wooden stake inside my chest And for a moment I am still And there is nothing Turn around and head back home The moment I hear you call Under the moon And 9 times out of 10 I am feeling overwhelmed It's what I do And it's a pain to breathe But the night is lovely From the front porch I can hear you start to whisper Disappointment in your tone Recounting things that I said from Some stupid argument I don't remember Change my mind and venture toward The woods in our backyard To smell the Evergreen Close my eyes and do my best To let this tired body rest In the stillness of the night I feel at home And the fireflies are dancing To a song I wish I wrote Under the moon And 9 times out of 10 I am feeling overwhelmed It's what I do And it's a pain to breathe But the night is lovely On a good day I get up And go outside Feel the sun against my skin Find a patch of grass to sit and Think of all the things I cannot change Like the color of the leaves Or anything