Growing Pains

I’ve got that summertime sadness Chaos giving me the madness Trying to be my own fascist Before I go fucking batshit Got these growing pains I cannot afford to pass it Because I’m a fucking savage Even if I can’t realize it Living life, not super lavish Just trying to stay out of caskets Cause I’m finished with the fuckshit All the bull shit, all the toughness cause I miss my mom and Time for my self’s gone and And I can’t help but feel bad Cause every time she sees me She says Listen come see me cause I’m missing you clearly Listen, it is my Intention to visit Ride with me if your not Busy I’ll do the dishes, after business It’s hard adjusting to growing pains Brain scattered, heart shattered But it doesn’t even matter Gotta be, a machine to keep working Not healthy but I don’t care Money stacking everywhere Lungs is burning out the air Trees burning up my fears I tell people you were my boyfriend when I’m not sure you really are Silly boy, passive aggressive kisses will not get you very far With me or my intuition as I walk this lonely boulevard So either give me all you’ve got or speed off on your jaguar I knew something was up, I knew from the start that you were tethered Didn’t even have to tell me Third eye, I sensed a scarlet letter Didn’t need to see a ring I could feel it in the weather I stayed under lock and key So if the shit goes wrong it will be severed Been hurt too many times Protection feels better Gotta stay light on my feet Lighter than a feather because It’s hard adjusting to growing pains So there’s my heart, it’s on a sleeve So take the key or leave me be ‘Cause I said what I meant and meant what I said So we can drift apart or better yet Let’s lay in bed and just forget all the other shit Call me baby, then all the lovey shit Got I’m craving it on some cuddle shit Got me loving it Invisible said it best, my beliefs are founded in the truth that I live Keep talking shit but I stay loyal to the truth that i give Keep on making these connections just to break it Call me Brexit, miscommunication, missing message Don’t fake a feeling, learn your lesson I surrender, I’m from outer space Stop talking to me, there is a time and place Stop me on the streets, what you gotta say? Oh, I’m on my way (On my way) Tell ‘em just wait (Just tell ‘em wait) Imma be a late (Imma be a little late) Half past 8 Cause It’s hard adjusting to growing pains Bill collectors blowing up my phone Since I put my money on a prepaid card I don’t link shit to my bank accounts Cause when it’s time to pay, they wanna overcharge I got interests rates that’s out the ass Cause my credits new so my score is bad And it’s slowly raising but not fast enough Trying to get a place but ain’t got no stuff Don’t tell me about getting up Don’t talk to me about growing up Work a cashier job and I’m good at math Making minim wage and its kinda trash Especially in LA, where the place is packed Cause we pay to much but don’t make enough The food kinda sucks unless you pay enough High economy, but not great enough Can’t get nowhere without paying up Gotta save it up ‘fore debt raises up Miss my friends, but I’m over them Call Jada, Kim, Darryana, Linds Go to Kai’s place, pull in the whip Play smash bro’s rip a heavy hit No time for it, missing summer shit Like high school with the surfer kids Miss my old friends it’s a bummer, shit Gotta stress it out, gotta flex it out Cause if I don’t then I get the run around Then all over again, I gotta run around Nigga sound it out, I think I found it now (Sheesh)