Phantom donuts

A blip in time Carries a benign New feeling To the air, to the room Now it's gone Sounds, they kill the space All things destroy the herd Beetles on the wall One a day, one a night Now I'm dead Could ya' Send the ghost back home Send the ghost back home Send the ghost back home Send the ghost back home What's out there? Search for it all day Steady as I flee Was another kin Where's the star in me? Petty as my feet Struggle underneath Flying through the woods High into the mood Something's quite uneasy That's the normal feeling All alone, not alone I don't care Just give me Something of meaning Like water to a lake To a moth on the brightest light If Neptune is nothing but mist Tell me this, what's the rest But a simple quest Out there somebody has another Saved for another Safe from another Safe from myself She been dead to me Since I boxed her in Leave a letter at her door Saying we're just friends And nothing more than that Anything other than that Is destined, not to last Kinda wack, broken glass But then I stop Take a eon or two to realize Good guys like me work Too hard to make time And wouldn't you know it I finally got it I've been stuck in a loop For all my life It's full of puny little lies Stupid sheering of a sheep that cries Whenever wolves reek havoc Surreal sober habits, blandest of skies Fixated beliefs like mine die out by night I could pray for the love of my life to love me And somebody else could pray for her instead Said she loved me to death, the way I smell So I gave her my ashes, told her "snort it well" They say "You better stop saying it Before they believe it" Okay? What if they do What are they going to do Hang me from a rope, lynch me Or oppress all my hope? Didn't think so, kid And yes, I would know Because my soul's been doing donuts For a thousand years Go from being a whale To eating male as a kale And hating hard on mayo Heyo, I'm just saying In my past life I could've died in a thousand times And still made it Maybe not with all of the old me Bold enough to tell you I'm as young as one can be But half the things I know about I knew by nine Some things in life Happen just for (Crap, some things in life happen Mhm, some things in life just happen for no reason And nobody cares to ask why Yeah)