Devil, Deed, Dénouement

How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid Do the bare minimum baby that be good enough Maybe I'm not good enough for you James is always saying do better Be a do gooder Don't do what you don't wanna do But I'm trapped with these roots and they climb through the roof with their thorns in my skin and the pain from within Imma buy herbicide next time I leave the house But it's been about a month and I don't think I will Kinda funny how the world works Never seems to work out and it gets worse Kinda funny how the world works Never seems to work out and it gets worse Drones in the sky They all watch and they love when you cry I been under so much pressure Struggled with depression Climb out the rabbit hole just to get kicked back in They all wish I could kick back Only when I'm dead would I do that You can chat with my skeleton if you want feedback But I don't really think that you need that How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid You should love yourself Yea right Tell me more lies Don't even need help I'll be just fine I remember being like 16 With my lips blue Thinking I'll be big soon But it's not true And It didn't even happen Drown in my sadness Should've learned a long time ago that I hate you Do this do that I cant even save you Kinda funny how the world works Never seems to work out and it gets worse Kinda funny how the world works Never seems to work out and it gets worse Where'd it all go wrong? Where'd it all fall apart? Haven't felt happy since I first picked the pen up Chained to my phone and I cant let go But I wanna give up and I'm too headstrong Been so long since I haven't looked dried up I'm on the edge of my seat ballpoint in my wrist let it bleed even though I don't want to How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid How did I get this way? Never been so lost never been afraid Love that I'm touch depraved Love that I got no brain I just wanna leave I just wanna get away from this place Nah, f*ck that F*ck that f*ck that You can suffer all alone and you're gonna relapse No one likes you anyways you don't need to prove that Maybe if I kill myself then they'll all laugh Wasn't meant for this world now run the blooper reel back