Never Conflicted

I've been drinking Thinking about a life that I could've had That I should've had I've been sinking Can't breathe underwater, do I like that? Or has my mind cracked? I made decisions Now I'm all out of luck Chasing fate didn't really ever work The past and the present all blend into one And it's too late to escape Cuz this cage got me stuck But I don't wanna leave Or do I wanna go? There's a difference between That I guess I'll never know Gotta stick to my word Or results won't show But I haven't felt happy since many years ago I see the world that you live in I'm better off without it and I know I wouldn't fit in I'm taking it for granted This blessing I've been given Did I grow up too fast? Or am I tripping? I've been drinking Thinking about a life that I could've had That I should've had I've been sinking Can't breathe underwater, do I like that? Or has my mind cracked? Never conflicted Are the words that are inked on my body But I can't copy I don't wanna fix it Imma make myself drown, I'm sorry I'm not sorry I got it tatted on my arm to remind me But I can't seem to follow these signs, please I can't do it on my own, come and find me Even though, this won't matter when I'm ninety Push it, push it to the back again Someone else can deal with it, I don't wanna depend On other people but I can't do this, my friend Wait a sec, I think I wanna try it again I've been drinking Thinking about a life that I could've had That I should've had I've been sinking Can't breathe underwater, do I like that? Or has my mind cracked? Never conflicted Are the words that are inked on my body But I can't copy I don't wanna fix it Imma make myself drown, I'm sorry I'm not sorry