THE BEACH HOUSE (AN OMEN)

I knew when you told me that your parents bought a vacation house on the lake I knew when I heard about those festivals in June we wouldn't make it to May I said I can't save you You said why do you offer to I said I don't know why I am this way You said you never asked me to change I said I wish I had stayed exactly the same Months have passed and sure it's felt like ages since you have been gone But I still feel the warmth of you in my bed as dusk turns into dawn Still feel the way you smiled when I see others smile at their lovers My friends don't understand cause they've never known someone Like we knew each other But I'm not your mother Wish that I had been Wish that I could be I wish I could care But I'm not your mother I'm not your savior Know that I could be But what would that make me Why do I have to be your mother For you to want me For you to see me For you to just care Why do I always have to therapize To fit the way you fantasize Til eventually you get tired And leave me behind I can't exist for you And you can't exist for me Go exist somewhere else I can't exist for you You can't exist for me Go exist somewhere else In a beach house I'll never see I can't exist for you You can't exist for me Go exist far away In a beach house I'll never see I can't exist for you You can't exist for me Hope you find your peace of mind In a beach house I'll never see I want my first love back I want all those hugs back Wanna undo all the love we shared So I never have to be scared At least I know for my next one I'll be prepared