lying to myself (boy toy pt. 2)

Yeah Smoke in the restroom (Ay) Hoping that I meet my doom Smoking suicide F*ck my life When I'm high Can you stay here by my side? (Ay) Why do I feel so depressed? Why do I feel so oppressed? I can feel it in my chest Maybe I should rest? Yeah I think that I fucked up Maybe I'm just lying to myself Maybe I'm just fuckin' up myself (Ay) Yeah, ay Baby I'm your toy I don't wanna let go Ay, I've been on my own for awhile now I've been suicidal for awhile now I've been trynna keep you far from me Right now Really wanna die here Right now Even If if it's in your arms Right now Even if it's in your car Right now Blow my Brains Right now Baby I'm your toy I don't wanna let go Yeah Smoke in the restroom (Ay) Hoping that I meet my doom Smoking suicide F*ck my life When I'm high Can you stay here by my side? (Ay) Why do I feel so depressed? Why do I feel so oppressed? I can feel it in my chest Maybe I should rest? Yeah I think that I fucked up Maybe I'm just lying to myself Maybe I'm just fuckin' up myself (Ay) Yeah, ay Baby I'm your toy I don't wanna let go Ay, I've been on my own for awhile now I've been suicidal for awhile now I've been trynna keep you far from me Right now Really wanna die here Right now Even If if it's in your arms Right now Even if it's in your car Right now Blow my Brains Right now Baby I'm your toy I don't wanna let go