Head First

I just felt like I had to, come to the booth, get this shit off my chest Cause If I don't I'm gon, just go the whole week keeping it in When I pop me a pill Pour some lean up inside of my cup You can tell I aint feeling okay Just get in my feelings start mixing that shit with the drugs Be abusing that shit on a daily Sometimes it be seeming like I aint got no one to trust But my brothers I know that we straight Nobody be matching the energy when I show love If I could get it back I would take it Don't vent to nobody they can't see the scars I smile but my mind out of place Can't stress I got dreams in my sleep about making it large Im trying to be one of the greats I dove in that water head first I been knew it was sharks How the f*ck I come across me a snake They betting on me for the win 'cause they know i'm a star When I rap lay it all on the table Remember when I wasn't able Remember when my OG wasn't stable Use to ding dong and ditch weren't no cable Was broke, started trapping, was trying get my weight up For that bag I'll turn to a taker, I aint scared take the risk for that paper Momma raised me a hustler I'm grateful My daddy wasn't there turned myself to a gangster Can't stay sober I'm stuck in a phase Brody got killed now its death on my brain Popped a few pills, I aint ate in some days Now I'm high & I'm hurt, guess you can't run from pain When I'm with my lil brothers I'm sane They motivate me keep my head in the game Wasn't never the type put these hoes 'fore the gang Last bitch that I tried with got comfy and changed That gangster shit run in my veins Take care of my people I love being the hero But sometimes the heroes need saving Been trying clear my mind out of state Thought I got away from them demons I guess they'll be creeping till I hit the grave I be calm but my heart filled with rage I showed 'em love they still slander my name Thought he was real but that aint how he came I wish they had told me the trap bring you cases I might be the next one to make it Still out here thuggin' stay dodging them jakes I been stacking my funds tryna see where it take me Been said I'm the one they all looked at me crazy When I pop me a pill Pour some lean up inside of my cup You can tell I aint feeling okay I get in my feelings start mixing that shit with the drugs Be abusing that shit on a daily Sometimes it be seeming like I aint got no on to trust But my brothers I know that we straight Nobody be matching the energy when I show love If I could get it back I would take it No one in the fam ever reached em' a mill If we cursed, swear to God I'm gone break Was trapping before I could ever write rhymes with a pen If I go broke its back to the basics Know all of them losses preparing a nigga to win I stay grounded I can't be complacent Asking if God can forgive me for all of my sins I know one day I'm gone have to face it