Relapse

So cold No I don't wanna relapse I'm so cold I just wanna get the heat back and grow old But my demons never see that they want soul I'm the person who can feed that I'm so close Not addicted but I got a problem I'm a sinner when I feel it so I want a homerun Stick to weed so you don't hit it feeling like the bottom Wish I could only feel the ceiling not the fucking hot sun Yeah bumming for a bottle or a blunt wish I never took the pills I lost all of the love family got me feeling real Lift me up more than the drug I just gotta get a meal got my stomach fucking up I'm conflicted I don't wanna live Looking for a sign a reason I can give Sitting on the ice looking up to the bridge Speaking to the sky cause I just wanna live No I don't wanna relapse I'm so cold I just wanna get the heat back and grow old But my demons never see that they want soul I'm the person who can feed that I'm so close Guess this is a testing among me Stretching my depression within reach I should really get the message before I peak Better trust in the lesson I might be Slowly drifting back to peace know I gotta float to bring it back to me My focus ain't the glass you see broken to the motions they attacking me Not addicted but I got a problem I'm a sinner when I feel it so I want a homerun Stick to weed so you don't hit it feeling like the bottom Wish I could only feel the ceiling not the fucking hot sun Guess this is a testing among me Stretching my depression within reach I should really get the message before I peak Better trust in the lesson I might be No I don't wanna relapse I'm so cold I just wanna get the heat back and grow old But my demons never see that they want soul I'm the person who can feed that I'm so close Bumming for a bottle or a blunt wish I never took the pills I lost all of the love family got me feeling real Lift me up more than the drug I just wanna go and heal want my love to cover up