Mind Over Matter

I know where I'm going I know where I'm from But on this path that I've chosen Will I rise or fall? When I'm finally on top of the mountain When I can say that I won Will it even matter at all Will it even matter at all Yeah Yeah Moved to New York tryna find myself Now I feel more lost than ever before All the pain I've been tryna run from Keeps knocking on my front door I'm on the phone with my Mums And she's worry sick Asking me questions 'bout gun laws Every time she turns on the news And hear a n***a got shot I'm always her first call Haven't spoken to my brother in months I hope his fam is doing OK My older sister gave birth to the most beautiful set of twins I pray I see them one day Consumed by the pursuit of shallow things I presume will make me feel worthy Worthy of love and some happiness Plus I gotta prove some people wrong I know where I'm going I know where I'm from But on this path that I've chosen Will I rise or fall? When I'm finally on top of the mountain When I can say that I won Will it even matter at all Will it even matter at all Yeah Yeah I'm never too proud to say I'm sorry But my pride won't let me ask for help It's hard to forgive without an apology People just expect you to forget One of my biggest fears is being ordinary That comes right after regret The sacrifices I've made to leave a legacy Have left me lonely with night terrors and cold sweats F**k making a living I'm here to make a killing I'm a threat to everybody Catch a body, yeah I'm willing Looking at the bigger picture I ain't even in it It's deeper than rap for me I'm only here to paint it Planned my arrival Decapitated my rivals From bread crumbs for survival To top notch vitals huh I'm more alive than I've ever been Skinny dipped in infinity I know where I'm going I know where I'm from But on this path that I've chosen Will I rise or fall? When I'm finally on top of the mountain When I can say that I won Will it even matter at all Will it even matter at all Yeah Yeah I'm only human I'm flawed But does it even matter at all Just wanted you to be proud of me Now that you are Does it even matter at all I'm owed apologies It's hard being the bigger man But does it even matter all If what drives me is insanity Call me crazy Does it even matter at all Does it even matter at all, at all Does it even matter at all